Sooo...  We're in the middle of a pandemic. Some of us are lucky enough to be safe at home surfing the net to alleviate our boredom.  What better time to get to know each other a little than locked up in our homes hoping this isn't the beginning of the end? Just kidding. Kind of... A month ago I turned forty and was fortunate enough to be celebrating my big four-oh! working on a big gay cruise ship with almost a thousand gay men from all over the world and colleagues I've come to think of over the years as friends and family. At forty, It's only now that I'm finally starting to feel more comfortable in my own skin. From the outside looking in, most of you may not have known that.  Like many gay men, I outwardly present a physically confident self to the digital world.  The truth of how I feel about myself, like most of us, is far more complicated than that. I too have negative self image stuff I'm working through and an entirely inconsistent way of show...